A few weeks ago, I took some magic mushrooms.
(sorry mum, I promise I don’t do drugs anymore except the occasional psychedelic trip.)
It wasn’t a particularly high dose. But it was enough to whack me out of my usual frame of mind and shift my perception of reality.
I spent most of the trip with my eyes closed, curtains shut, blanket draped over my face and entire body. Everything was telling me: go inwards. Let nothing in. Just you, your thoughts, and your inner world.
I guess you could say I went on a shamanic journey.
I was seeking answers.
Or at least clues. Messages. Intuitive hits.
And yes… they arrived in spades. Not the answers my mind was expecting. The mind, after all, primarily operates through logic and fear.
But damn, sometimes the answers are so obvious they’re staring you right in the face.
We were born knowing.
We were born with all the answers we could ever need inside of us.
We are here to remember —
to remember who you are
to remember your desires
to remember what you came here to experience.
I believe we often do know what we want to do with our lives, or know the next step we need to take. We receive inklings of it all the time, like an invisible golden string that wants to pull us forward.
But we don’t make the choice or decision to follow it.
We slam the Universal telephone down and tell ourselves, “nope, that can’t possibly be it. It must be over there, where everyone else is hanging out. It must be buried under a secret rock in the middle of the rainforest.”
We make things harder than they need to be. We choose the rocky, treacherous terrain instead of seeing there’s a paved path laid out perfectly just for you.
The slipstream.
The golden thread.
Your highest timeline.
(whatever you want to call it these days.)
So often, we push away what we truly desire by deciding that something isn’t possible before we’ve even begun. We listen to our doubts and insecurities; we tell ourselves it’s “too hard” or “I’m not capable of figuring it out on my own.”
In this moment, we don’t realize we are still making a choice.
You are choosing the life that you are living.
I know this is a triggering, controversial, and perhaps, politically-incorrect statement to make —
But I can validate it’s truth in my own life. I have always been given exactly what I was asking for. I just didn’t know exactly what I had been asking…
***
I’ve spent most of my 20s in a constant state of indecision.
Not wanting to make any choice, frozen by analysis-paralysis, held hostage in a state of confusion whilst I remained in eternal limbo.
I was very much stuck in my mind; out of body; swimming in my own thoughts; influenced by anyone’s opinion that came my way; looking for any excuse to not have to decide or commit to any one path.
I can see directly how the last several years have culminated to where I am today.
For example, I told myself for many years that I was incapable of making money, that I was “hemorrhaging” all my resources.
Thus, it became my reality.
Another example —
For many years, I told myself I had no direction or purpose.
Thus, my life became directionless and lacked purpose.
In contrast, I can also see the times in my life when I have made a definite decision something was going to happen. Almost always, that decision comes to fruition shortly afterwards.
The decision always precedes external manifestation.
But it must be made in absolute faith and belief it’s going to happen. No hesitations. Just a calm, resolute knowing.
For example, at the end of 2022, I had arrived at the decision I was going to move to the States. It only took a couple of weeks for an invitation to appear as my ticket to move over here.
Or when I finally decided I wanted to get a job and become a barista, after mulling it over for months and months (way too long, I know lol), it all happened within the span of two weeks after deciding I was going to do it.
When you do decide upon something, and you know, without a doubt, it’s going to happen — it will. This is the Power of Intention.
The purity of a desire, when backed by intention and belief, is like a cannon that launches you straight into the stratosphere.
Think about it. Whenever you have really wanted something, you have taken the steps to move in that direction. It did not feel like force or struggling — it’s like some kind of superhuman strength takes over you. You have the energy to take tangible action towards your desire. And in response, what you want also moves towards you.
Making the decision is what catalyzes momentum.
To bring it back to my mushroom trip, this was one of the main messages I kept receiving:
You have to choose. You have to CHOOSE what you want. You have to CLAIM your desires.
It’s okay to be in a space where you don’t know what they are. But don’t prolong this phase more than necessary. Don’t extend it into a years-long, drawn-out-process where you go around in endless circles marinading in your own confusion.
(aka, me from ages 23 to 28.)
You could just decide to cut the bullshit and listen to what you already know inside of you.
You could just decide to pick up the phone….
***
I’m getting a car.
Thank fucking god. I’m done with walking and biking everywhere for the last two years. I’m ready for autonomy and ultimate FREEDOM.
I truly believe my life is going to change now I have an appropriate method of transportation for living in this country.
And with new-found freedom comes new-found possibilities…
New desires. New opportunities.
A new direction pulling me forward.
I have a lot of optimism and hopefulness about the future. I can’t say that’s always been the case — too often, I have given in to a rather bleak perception of my future, based on my deepest insecurities and lack of self-confidence.
But perhaps, I’m just deciding I want more for myself.
I’m deciding that I am more than worthy and capable of having the life I desire.
And it all begins with a singular choice.
You must remember, you always have the power to choose.
So ask yourself — what am I choosing? what am I saying yes to? what are the circumstances I am agreeing to allow into my life?
Be honest with yourself. Write the thing down, say it out loud. Admit to your deepest desires. Own them. Embrace them.
And if you need some assistance in remembering what they are —
Take some magic mushrooms.
I’m joking. But seriously. That shit works. 🍄 🌀

Yes yes yes!!!! Every word, on point as always and can 💯 confirm, all the amazing things I have now I chose them !
Today I literally said to myself "I can't DO IT" and I knew it was self doubt and I KNOW it keeps coming crashing in every time I dare mutter the words "but I can" and this. THIS essay. Was exactly the motivation and reminder I needed to remember the power of intention. THANK YOU. Also-- I am so proud of you!! Shine on ✨